The more time I spend in hospitals around real doctors and patients, the more I realized how little I know. There are so many concepts that I learned in the first few years of med school that I thought I understood perfectly. And, on the flip side, there are so many concepts that I just ignored and never memorized because I was convinced there was no way anyone could ever understand or need to use it in real life. And now in the midst of 3rd year, I find out that not only is everything relevant, but that everyone understands and knows everything!
At the same time, when I look back just a few years, I remember feeling similarly about the 3rd and 4th year med students. I feel like I know so much more now than I ever even imagined could fit into my brain. When I think about what I knew before med school, it is clear that I have learned, improved, and grown so much in the past few years. But, despite all of this growth and change, when I look forward into the future, it is absolutely staggering how much more changing and growing I will have to do.
It is truly a strange dichotomy – the feeling of being stupid but brilliant all at the same time. But, despite the seemingly insurmountable learning curves, the fact that there is always going to be so much more to learn is what keeps me inspired to continue working.