Needless to say, Mitzi’s birthday was really difficult. Having passed my exam with flying colors, I was able to fill the majority of the day with much needed meetings in hopes of allowing the time to past as quickly as possible. While this made for a very productive day, it didn’t exactly prevent my emotions from taking over. It only delayed their release. I’m proud of myself for being able to temper it until my work was done but man, I miss her. It’s not just missing her though. It’s the longing to hug her again, the having to remind myself that I’m not going home for her birthday this year, the way that I still look for her when I go home. I’m still working to be able to feel normal when I visit my family. But it’s not normal! It’s a new normal that I don’t particularly care for. This on top of everything else makes the stress of classes much more than need be. Through out the month of April will be very difficult for me to keep it together and keep focused. The plan? Stay busy, get good sleep, and watch the emotional eating!
The good news, I am now the president of our chapter of the SNMA! I cannot wait to jump in and get started in planning for next year. This will be great! I’m also looking forward to seeing my GMS family next weekend and my SNMA family the weekend after that! I will definitely be depending on the support of my family and friends to make it through this month.