I am so excited!!! Because I am the first in my family to go down this path, no one has ever been to a white coat ceremony nor do we know what to expect. My medical school journey isn’t mine alone either. I am making family history. So to observe this historical event, the better part of my entire family is attending. At last count we have 35 people attending the ceremony from as far a Washington DC and Albuquerque, New Mexico just to see me get my white coat. I will be sure to update you on how that all panned out. From what I have been told we have at least one car pool of 8 coming from Columbus who are sure to be stiff when they arrive and we can’t forget the 35 person dinner reservation as well so I am sure this will be quite entertaining.
Aside from all of the excitement, I cannot ignore this anxiety. It’s really happening. I am actually going to be a doctor. I am actually going to make my dreams come true. At one point, after you get that acceptance letter, you have a moment where it hits you that this is going to happen. I think the other realization happens when you meet your classmates and finally get your white coat. Its not going to happen anymore, it is happening and there is no turning back. I am really afraid; afraid of the debt and the outcome of the scholarships I have yet to hear back from, afraid of failure and not being academically good enough, and afraid of what I may (probably will) have to sacrifice over the next four years. I know that with God all things are possible so I embrace my fears and I am forging ahead.
In 24 hours, I will have my White Coat and will be preparing for my first day of medical school. Why do I feel like a kid starting kindergarten, butterflies and all hoping my mommy won’t leave? I think the better question is why do I feel like I shouldn’t? I’m actually starting medical school!